Grief is like glitter! At first it’s everywhere…. in your pants, in your hair, under your nails, it’s everywhere. And then at one point you think it’s all gone, But one day you will find glitter in your pocket or in your car, and it will bring it all back. but in a way that is actually sparkly this time instead of messy, because it reminds you of the good.
I actually Loooove February — I call it Love Month. I hope everyone feels love this month. I mean, I hope you feel love every day, always, but there’s something really special about February. It’s a reminder. A reminder to love your people, to reconnect, because life gets so busy and we forget to pause. The 14th is that day where you should just stop and celebrate love. Get connected. Get a little spicy. Treat each other. Hug for a bit longer. Cherish your person and your people. I genuinely love seeing people buy flowers and make the effort — I love seeing love celebrated.
Also MEN! A woman’s sex drive is determined by how good you treat her….
As for me, I’ll be taking myself out for a coffee! then heading to the gym to work on my ass and my core for my Ski trip which is this month! and then i'm off to the cinema with the girls, and I honestly can’t wait. The gym part— I find it really hard to make eye contact, it's a really annoying habit! So after years of being there i've noticed - NO ONE! So Vday i'm going to put on my best gym outfit on, for me! as i'm not going in there to pull but im going in there to learn and i want to feel real good about it! i also was hoping everyone in relationship won't be there and they will be at home or out with their loverz! Wish me luck! it’s a small step into a new rhythm. I don’t even fully know what I’m saying, I just feel like it’s a good idea.
What’s funny is how rare it is for me to find someone attractive. I appreciate beauty, of course, but true attraction is rare for me. I can describe my type in terms of who someone is on the inside far more easily than how they look. If I could show you my dating history it would make so much sense. Anywayssss!!!
So here’s to Love Month. I hope it brings love in all its forms - friendship, romance, community, self-love. We all need it. I think the world really does too.
Nothing But Love.
T xoxo
Updated: 6 days ago
What an interesting realisation. But most importantly — I’m BACK.
Today, after a year and a bit without fully understanding why until now, I realised I had quietly closed the door on my spirituality. I stopped burning sage and smudge sticks. My crystals were boxed away. I stopped dancing — the thing that i love most to get me out of my head and back into my body. I stopped all connection with my chakras and put my very clever intuition in a corner.
And now I understand why.
In 2024, someone I deeply loved was diagnosed with cancer. I went all in. I sank deeper into my spirituality than ever before, focusing entirely on their healing. I smudged and saged daily. I created a healing altar specifically for them. I poured every ounce of belief, intention, and energy into one outcome only — that they would be well. No doubt. No questioning. Just unwavering focus, hope & Love, i can't even remember if they even knew.
I’m not saying they healed because of this — modern medicine is incredible — but this was my role in the journey. And they healed. Cancer gone.
After that chapter closed and our lives moved in different directions, something shifted in me. I did a full 360. I became very clear on what I truly wanted, and it turned out to be beautifully simple: land for a home, space for a vegetable patch, and a business that gives me financial freedom — for myself and if i were to ever have children. Health, stability, investment. All things that require courage and money.
So in 2025, I reminded myself of a hard truth: if I don’t get uncomfortable, my life won’t change. I went on to built foundations — not everything is finished, but 2025 was a powerful start.
But somewhere along the way, my spirituality stayed behind in 2024. I think with absolutely no regrets and i would do it all over again! but I exhausted myself. i exhausted my soul, my heart, my body, my mind! And even though I promised that once they recovered, I’d turn inward and explore my intuition, id go deeper into my spirituality, everything that has always guided me really really well — I hesitated. I instead closed the door on it and focused on the goals and only the goals that i wanted so badly! and i can't be mad about it as it's the first time in my life where i know what i truly want and that feels so fucking good, im 34 btw! so i suppose after everything and there was alot going on! I only had the energy to focus purely on that! i'm so lucky that my work doesnt drain my soul! anyways!
The truth is, I have a gift. my intuition has never been wrong. I think I’ve been afraid, in fact i know i was/ am because i wouldn't study it at the time the cancer diagnosis was given because i was to afraid that it would change the answer i already had which was he would heal and the Cancer would go! and that's why i wanted to wait till after to go deeper on discovering just how powerful it really is. Also i didn't know how to balance it all at once, But today... We started the unfearful journey! I burned sage! and honestly, wow. Not only that, not only have the signs been really REALLY clear on me coming back to my spirituality, this morning I woke up to four messages from four different
Friends, all sharing how well they’re doing, how much they’re thriving, some inviting me to spiritual workshops and yoga! I haven't had an invite to something like this in over a year, which uplifts me so much. One even sent me a music track she created with her husband. This particular friend/soul sister is my OG with spirituality; she is divine! But I was shocked to find out that she has also not been connected with her spirituality, and that shook me because she is the queen of it! We're both going to work on that! The track they made sent me to another world, it sent me home actually. After 30 minutes of it, I shared the track with my people's straight away and explained how to use it. I’ll share it on here soon because it deserves its own moment. And that was the final sign I needed. My spirituality has been calling me back, loudly.
I danced to the track, which is over an hour long. I cleaned my apartment. I felt that familiar pull — that deep, deep reconnection.
Even yesterday, when I went for a facial, The facialist smudged me while I was wrapped up and ready, she's never done this before. I nearly cried. I didn’t — I love her, but I don’t know her well enough to cry in front of her! But she knew I needed it. That moment mattered more than she'll ever know, and I made sure she felt deeply appreciated.
The universe. The creator. My spirituality. MUVA. Whatever you want to call it. She’s been calling me back like, “Hey T, it’s time. We gave you the space. You’ve had your break. The door’s open again, it’s time. — we’ve been waiting.”
I’m ready. The balance that is needed for this next journey involves me needing to be reconnected. Especially with this version of myself and what I’m about to become and create!
I'm glad to be back! And thank you to my beautiful friends!
Nothing But Love.
T xoxo
