I feel so proud of myself, I went to bed at 8:30pm and my 4am alarm wasn’t painful! I saw the sunrise and I’m an hour early for this drop off! by the time I get home I would have lived a whole life before 12 hahahahahaa!!! I love it! Don’t look to bad either do I!!!! Hope today brings you joy and good communication ❤️
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The best way to know when your man is doing something wrong is when your PH balance is off or your peace is off or you intuition is kicking you hard and your unsure why.
It’s so nerve racking when this happens because you question yourself and think if I bring this up and there’s nothing going on I will feel stupid or I might put him off but honestly no good & kind man will be put off, he won’t mind you asking anything and he will offer reassurance if it is just insecurity that’s making you want to ask him or look on his phone, nor will be refuse to pass you his phone.
You might be thinking what if I say something and he deletes everything from his phone! Well I promise you even if it does give him a head start to hide things your PH or your peace or your intuition will either tell you separately or altogether! I promise you with all my heart & my experiences. ♥️
Phones: let me be super clear! Fuck anyone who thinks “my phone is a private thing bla bla bla” no. I believe in a love so pure, respect so powerful, loyalty so strong. I will never betray, hurt or disrespect you which means take my phone, go on my phone as many times as you like! I cleared my history out the moment I knew I wanted a relationship which means I did it way before you came along and if anything comes through that I think may make you uncomfortable I’ll show you so you know what I’ll be doing with it. People who have nothing to hide will not care about you looking at their phone in moments of ph being off intuition being off key or being disturbed…… or just because your last relationship gave you insecurities because that’s how you found out your ex was cheating on you. Respectfully ask and real respectful, loyal men won’t think twice!
My day started at 4am when I’m hayfever wanted to kick in! Itchy throat, itchy ears blocked and itchy nose, I was tired and then the little things like a pictures of you and your ex poppin up on your memories through your phone which you thought you’d deleted, the picture is sooooooo lovely but when I deep it because my mind does it was actually a really uncomfortable day for me ( would be for 99.9% of most women) & then you hear the song you was practicing and learning on your piano to sing it to him on the radio, 3 times. which may I add I have never in 32 years of life heard it on the radio! So after that I had to not listen to any romantic tunes such as Lewis Capaldi because it was just giving ickyyyyyy vibes. But we’re 4 months down it feels like the dregs of heart break but also the feeling of what deep down I really want which is a companion anyways l!
So with all of the above mixed with tiredness and the thought of my 4am alarm tomorrow I feel a bit mer! a little bit of shame. A little of rage, a little bit of empowerment & happiness and a little bit of ……. Don’t want to speak upon it anymore! Hahaha what I will say is I also smashed today been to work which I enjoyed! lve done 4 loads of washing and I might go gym or I might make my bed with fresh sheets and go to bed! The weather is so sweet! And I do feel really blessed mixed with One of those days. About to start writing a to do list, something that I’m really into at the moment and would like to keep at it because it holds me accountable and I’m getting loads done. I honestly feel like I’m on a mission a real life mission, and the mission is to save Tillie. She’s been captured is a place that doesn’t like people flourishing or growing surrounded by emptiness & I need to get her out of capture and into paradise! I need to take big risks because it’s a big job……. I cant & won’t think of anything else other than I need to save Tillie aka myself. Everything else will have to wait! I’m on a mission. Haha it’s scary and exciting all at the same time.
Sending big massive hugs to you all my Loverssssss (mind: wow I miss having hugs on tap) remember hugs are sooooo powerful & life saving. Hope you’re had a better day than mine. Big love! Night night x
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