Afternoon my beautiful Darlings,
I hope you are being a little SOULFEEDer AKA Feeding your soul in some big or small way today. The Sun is shining bright, absolutely freezing but shining and that makes me very happy whilst I'm sat in my favourite sun trap seat in Costa! I'm definitely a regular here now.. I just want to mention that a Mental Health walk would be a great idea today if your feeling Good or Low. I've learnt over the the last 4 months not to unintimate the power of walking not just for the bad days but the GOOD days too! Walking for me has given me more space in my mind for Inspiration, Hope & Clarity. Most of those walks have been 30 minutes long! but yeah Anything that makes you happier and healthier today or everyday is always a good idea.
So my Life & Me...... For a few years now, my life has been a fine balance of YAY, YUCK & WTF! (Naaaaaa why does that sound so good, it's got me laughing #SELFLUV)
YAY to the movements I'm making, the respect and loyalty I've been given, the relationships that are blossoming, Growing and my life just LYF-IN right now. Perfectly blended in with YUCK & WTF.
Growing up & Life can get so uncomfortable and scary sometimes, it actually feels like being on a rollercoaster. Choosing yourself can really feel uncomfortable at first, even if you're really good at self-love, it does remind me of adrenaline. I don't think it's possible to feel bad after choosing you, once the dust settles after going through the emotions of the reasons why you're wanting or having to put yourself first in situations. (Example: Leaving a job that you dread going to every day or leaving someone who you adored but treats you less than what you deserve. The list is endless) But think about it.... how many times have you regretted putting YOU first? I have never regretted loving & protecting my Mind, Body & Soul in bad toxic situation, and don't get me wrong, I/WE have and are going to mess up and stay or go back to situations that no longer serve or deserve us. But we learn from it, which is what is most important. 99.9% of the time these situations will teach us so much, they are here to help us stay in our own lane and help water our own grass. WE ARE HUMANS. Always and forever learning! And hey! i loveeeeee giving my full self to situations and relationships that i can feel sees, hears, feels and knows my worth which in recent times has taught me that meeting or finding that is very rare. ANYWAYS opening up about that was me just wanting to remind you that you are enough, to work on always feeling enough for yourself and not others, you’re human and working on yourself and putting yourself first is abso-fucking-lutely the right and necessary thing to do Especially when you have worked out and understood that you are a genuine decent human being that the world is always calling out for (Shout out to my traumatised people pleasers)
PUT claps* YOUR calps* SELF calps* FIRST. set yourself free! Give self that top tier love.
So, it looks like your girl will be able to go back to therapy soon. I reckon in 3 months, I want a therapist mixed with a life coach, though. I've healed/found a comfortable place for my trauma; I just need to keep up with the now, the triggers, and work towards my life and business goals. Any recommendations would be welcomed. I've landed myself some decent work for the whole of 2025. Applying for work has been a world of rejection, and I'm actually in shock at how these job sites work. I must have applied for over 100 jobs in December. I think one company came back to me to let me know they had received my CV; none got back to me for an interview, not one... yet.
Millions of job offers, though, I was getting emails at 3 a.m. asking me to apply for work, with calls from random people about roles I wouldn’t go near. It's just wild & can be super disheartening. Hats off to anyone trying to find work; keep pushing for what you want. Luckily, LUCKILY, LinkedIn came through, and I reached out to people I knew in high areas and was met with luck, so my current goals were met, and I feel very lucky... Very YAY. All of which met me at divine timings too!
-Is there anything you feel lucky for? I would love to know.
Also, the people I've been meeting recently have been so bloody lovely, their story times and past times, the good and the bad ones, have me feeling inspired and supported. Meeting like-minded people has been so hard for me, but... here's another YAY over 2024 up until now and hopefully forever I've been meeting people that make me feel good and my nervous system feels happy & safe. And that's not including my handful of real ones I have. LOVE YAS. so its really been balancing out the Dickheads.
Social Media... we're on day 11, and it feels so great and needed, small twinges of missing it, but the benefits have been reaping. I will always and forever recommend taking time offline.
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Anyways I've got to move on to eating something and getting my ass out of Costa, if any of the above resonates with you come on through and BLA BLA BLAAA with me... ill peel you an orange. And yesterday i did go gym and will have a big girl cry at some point all of which are very healthy options! as always - Nothing but Love. T xoxo
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